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Name: Ming
Gender: Female
Interests: Reading, writing, composing, listening to others' stories and thinking
Expertise: Good at writing and playing the piano. Singing is good too and learning the violin.
Occupation: Other
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Member Since:
4/15/2003
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| It is the year of the golden ox and recently, one of the banks was offering mum "a golden ox" if she deposited **** amount of money. We said, we already have one very diligent golden ox at home; my most diligent elder brother. He works very hard every day, wakes up at 5.30, goes to work at 6.00 and comes home past 6.00 pm, and most probably finishes his paper work around 10 or 11. So, he is definitely the golden ox in the house. Today, a public holiday, mum called my eldest brother. Proved to be another ox, he was in the office working. So, we have another golden ox. Then, I told mum, the family produces many oxen: Golden ox, normal ox, and a stupid one. The stupid one turned out to be me; a workaholic, who does not know how to get her rewards, never really wonder how much she should get until... dunno when. But, we are all very hardworking people... Hahahah, slightly proud of it. I think it pays to be diligent!!! | | |
| Tonight, my mind is wandering again, wandering up the path I have not seen before, but ... where will it lead me??? When life has so much uncertainty, when you are unwilling to part with the current scenery, what do you miss? I don't see roses here, and I don't smeel any daffodils there. What am I to do? If only time will stop here, I will stand still at this junction, gaze up to the sky and tell myself, "there lies my dream, there hangs my hope". But, this is not meant to me. THe sun will leave me behind, the stars will say their farewell, and I will be alone still. Should I run now and go after that rainbow which only I can see? O...., I am such a dreamer and my dream is calling me and my heart is heavy. O..., how I long to have a lighter steps to heed the call. O... If the sunset today a golden one, ... let there be hope! | | |
| Today is a day I think a lot. Maybe I am not forgiving after all. 1. Student decided to stop lesson. Fine with me.2. I caused confusion once again. Very upset.3. Don't understand why people still think the blind are like kids. Depressing.4. So many things to keep up to expectations. So pressurised.Why old hurts never seem to heal? | | |
| Today is indeed a great and wonderful day for me. Woke up, decided to get many, many things organised and done. Came into office, and started organising. Now, by 9:30 a.m., everyone is either gone to teaching or meeting or other appointments. Great! The office is left with me alone and, silence. I enjoy it very much as I am always distracted by the noises from my colleagues. They are simply too noisy for me and I can't concentrate on my writing. Yes, I am required to write quite a lot, and most of the time, I simply can't think. Well, this is not my own opinion. I had a friend who came over to help me out and she commented the same. "How do you survive the noise level in your office?". Another quoted, "you simply have to work after office hours, when everyone is not around. The noise....".This morning, I spent my time writing a speech and am still writing. I enjoy it. Later, I would have to start writing articles for the newsletter. And, lesson plan for my teaching. At times, I even work better from home, because I have my favourite drink, I could lie down or walk around to get inspirations and ideas, if too stressed, I could have my favourite CD on. O, no more unnecessary music to distract me, conversations which are too loud (across the room), several conversations of the same volume going on at the same time. O, chaotic!!!All right, better grab the chance of writing in this quiet mode. | | |
| Well, today my student decided not to turn once again. I am not sure how to make sure that my students turn up for every lesson. I do understand that sometimes the parents just can't send them, but ... are they aware that it means waste of time, waste of money and the child just can't progress as scheduled. In fact, I do not know how to explain to my supervisor why my students just can't enroll for any accredited board examinations. Basically, I am stuck. All right, let's not talk about work. ... Hmmm, maybe it is still about work. Going down to KL again this week for a conference. I just wish it would be a good time with new contacts and build a fruitful connection. What else? Life is as usual, dull and ... tired most of the time. At times I do wonder do I need to see the doctor since I get the constant headache and I am not even sure if I am over exhausted or just simply not enough sleep. | | |
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